True Love

I sometimes feel lonely and lost
When I've been tricked or double crossed
It must be worth pain
I've witnessed the gain
I'll find it no matter the cost

If in public eyes I am caught
And they say it's not what I ought
I'll always believe
In what I conceive
And I'll follow through what I am taught

Someday I'll be fearless and brave
My own road of gold will I pave
Not wander around
Until I am found
Alone yet unscathed in my cave

But until I conquer my fears
And subject myself to the tears
I won't know the feel
Of true love when real
Which lasteth forever in years

Though past lies and pain I do cart
I'll erase and a new slate start
Let comfort surround
My ties be unbound
The day that I open my heart

Each that cannot

Each moment, grain of time
Sifts through fingers that cannot grasp
And is lost in the wind

Each meaningless word, empty wind
Glides throught the vastness that cannot end
And never moves a single star

Each small beauty, shining star,
Beams off of eyelids that cannot see
And doesn't distract the hourglass, time

I Know A Girl

I know a girl, beautiful soul
But she's kind of messed up in her brain
She feels alone, digs herself a hole
And in it hides all of her pain

Surrounding her hole she built a wall
To keep new pain out but old pain in
Her friends try to climb, but it's too tall
Each day she wakes entrapped with her sin

Without release she become confused
And when she looks at the glass she sees
Dreams tattered, spirit worn, life abused
Evil replaced happy memories

Through the cracks, sunshines hope hits her face
And when she looks through the glass she sees
Our arms reaching for her embrace
"You don't deserve love," whispers the disease

I knew a girl, beautiful soul
But she was kind of messed up in her head
She wouldn't let anyone console
And one day we found her alone, dead.

My Many Personalities

She is so sweet
Her kind-hearted spirit
Surrounded by shyness
Yet full of spunk
Flowingly emotional
Honest Moral
Religious and true

She is so vibrant
Her cheerful air
Glinted by wild side
Deep Dark
Yet fun Bright
Cheery With the
Melting smile

She is so mixed
Her hearty attitude
Ready for challenge
Yet vulnerable to pain
Crazy Cool
Strong enough
To ask for help

She is so chic
Her unique outlook
Composed by many
Yet all her own
Glossy Rosey
Displaying love
To her own world

She is so me
Her understanding thoughts
Curiously question
Yet hold faith
I look to her for
A mirrored image of
My loyal friends


For Erica, Kathryn, Amanda, Aleks. Thank you for shaping who I am with your beautiful friendship.

My Love/Life

I walk around inside my head
Inside my house
Dreaming thoughts

I sip pink lemonade Its sour
Makes me thirsty
For everything

I wash my face I love that
To clarify
Yes To clarify

I hold myself Smooth legs
Rough arms
Thinking dreams

I write in darkness Invisible ink
Morning reveals
Mourning reveals

I pull in the car Not going anywhere
Tonight that is
Life on hold

I listen for sounds of intelligent life
Phone calls mostly
Life in waiting