I wish I had the courage

To tear away these thick cloaks
Covering my soul
And be bare

Peel away crusted layers
Of my feigned confidence
And be shy

Strip myself of the knowledge
That lead me down this path
And be pure

Be released from these shackles
Weighted down by my fear
And be free

I already know

Just do it
You could you know
You would you know
You should you know

Just see it
You will you know
You'll kill you know
For thrill you know

Just live it
You had you know
You're bad you know
They're mad you know

Just be it
You may you know
Your way you know
One day you know

Song for the worried

Look down. You'll see me there.
I see your point. It's in my direction.

I sigh. Don't ask why.
Just be there for me.
Today, any day,
Asked why, I won't lie.

Please don't tell me to be good.
I need to do this on my own.
I can't just do what you would.
You're pushing me away from you,
From my life, my world, my home.

Look down from your crown.
It's me past debris.
Step here. Make it clear.
You've seen, I'm unclean.

Please don't tell me to be good.
I need to do this on my own.
I can't just do what you would.
You're pushing me away from you,
From my life, my world, my home.

Look down, you'll see me there.
I see your point. It's in my direction.

Infected

I'm sick
With desire
For self worth
Looking to others
Will never quench it

Do the antibodies lie in actions?
For I have done the unknown.
(My sighs run deeper than yours
Against me)

Have I discovered the answer?
My explorations have delved deep
Too close
Perhaps
For sight
I must go on touch alone
Though feeling confuses me

Now the feeling is gone
Numb and empty I go on
But not really
I cry

The feeling rushes back again
With forced heat
Fierce eyes
Flushed cheeks
Unkissed remain

But they wait
Much too long

We are all here

We may not all be here for you
We may not all be right
We may not stop to think it through
We may not fight the fight

We may not be our very best
We may not try at all
We may not get enough rest
We may not think to call

We may not see it all your way
We may tune out our ear
We may not all be here to stay
But we too are all here

Comfort Rolls

I'm not ashamed of how I feel
I have courage to be real
Though water from my eyelis steal
I will not blot emotions seal

When I drag a heavy tow
Or what I want's not what I know
I must learn to let go
I will not stop the gentle flow

Life's troubles may seem so bleak
The falling water starts to sneak
And comfort rolls down my cheek
Evaporating streak by streak

Even if my plight is mere
And all is well that I hold dear
In joy, pain, sorrow, or fear
I will not wipe away a tear

The Tower

Because I want to disappear
Lay siege upon another

Because capture seems like release
I lay each of these stones

Because I lie here, to myself
Is why I built this tower

Lost Lover

Though a strand go wayward
Doth the old wind blow
Sinking slowly downward
Your heart not still, but slow
I'll not shed one bitter tear
It is within my heart is breaking
For your fate I do not fear
Heaven's chariot you are taking
Through harsh and brutal terrain
You, my love, shall be at peace
My every breath is filled with pain
My love for you shall never cease
I promised to love you 'til the end
But that promise just won't do
You are my love, my life, my friend
Everlasting is my love for you
I need not to visit your grave
For a love so deep
I will be strong I will be brave
Your love inside me I will forever keep
Your spirit lifted upward
Your memory with me will forever flow
Though a strand go wayward
Doth the old wind blow
I hear the graveyard willows cry
beckoning me in the breeze
Yet the only sound I hear is thy
Calling me through the trees
I wander aimlessly around
My soul hath lot its way
At your headstone I fall to the ground
Sobbing as I pray:
"Lord, take care of my love
Through your awesome grace
Send an angel from above
Take me from this place"
Love, I cannot let you go
Though I might try
For you this kiss I blow
I love you and goodbye
My life is moving forward
New dawn, claims rooster's crow
Though a strand go wayward
Doth the old wind blow

Best Time So Far

A smile rests on my face
You put it there, you know
When will tears take its place?
How long before you go?

Elation fills my day
A buzz sets in my brain
A feel without dismay
How long will it remain?

It's finally my turn
I won't give it away
How long before I birn?
It's up to you to say

It's finally my turn
I won't give it away
How long before I learn?
It will not be today