Reflection

I washed away my filth
And saw my own face
It burned red with my guilt
So humbled by shame

I stared into my eyes
But then cast them down
For empty, hollow strangers
Must not be found

For then it will be true
My being transformed
The only girl I knew
Completely undone

Found innocence, faith
Even hope restored
If I can ever look
At myself once more

My First Try

I was blinded by the light
of my own halo floating
Until you knocked it down
and wondered why it fell
Now 'm just an angel
in a plain girl's clothing
Wondering how I got here
Was I under your spell?

I was deafened by my ego
While my friends were crying
Calling out to save me
They're too far away
Now no one's around me
In the darkness sighing
Confused about what we were
What's now under decay?

How the hell did it get like this?
When did I begin to fray?
What was lingering behind your kiss?
Who are you? Why did you come my way?

I was psyched out by your status
Like some higher icon painted
Leading me biweekly
To distorted clarity
Now you sit and judge me
How I seem too tainted
To crowd around your presence
With my false purity

I was so numbed by your coldness
Though you let me feel your heat
Seeping out the window
Open showing me to fly
Now it might be over
You make me take a seat
Please forgive my weakness
This was my first try

How the hell did it get like this?
When did I beggin to fray?
What was lingering behind your kiss?
Who are you? Why did you come my way?

On my first try

I Will Miss Them

Don't tell me to hold my tears
I will cry them just the same
They will build up from it all
The pain I feel for your ignorance
The joy I find in my freedom
The light that now shines on my life
A spotlight of shame to some
The light of truth and knowledge

They will rush forth with strength
Enough to smear the dirt you see on my face
Then they will fade away
Like your faith in me
Evaporated from reality
Into oblivion